here it goes again. all my friends have guys interested in them and here i am having literally 0 guys have an interest in me. i just want to go to prom this year i hope i can find someone to take me. clean eating today.
its as if i won’t ever have someone who wants me. I feel and look like crap and i’ve been trying to get so skinny for so fucking long. nothing is working. i feel like all my friends hate me. i feel as though i will never find love. it hurts me. im supposed to be having all this fun and here i am sitting at home on a saturday night home alone crying. I just want to be skinny. I want to feel beautiful. how much fucking longer will i have to put up with this?
i just feel like whenever i like someone something always goes wrong. i feel like i wont ever get a boyfriend and that thought terrifies me. i just want to have a good body and have someone who loves me. i thought i liked you and i thought you felt the same but apparently not. i just dont think anyone realizes how annoying it is feeling so alone. i just want a relationship with a normal boy who enjoys me just as much as i enjoy him.
Bye bye arm jiggle
it just hurts so much. i don’t like too many people. I liked you and i thought something good was going to come out of it. i was so wrong. you’re now with her.i’m not saying this because you’re together but she is honestly just so insane. i know you can do better and i know i’d make you happier than she ever could. i guess you’ll never know that though. i shouldve told you when we hungout. i shouldve. i can only blame myself though i never did tell you that i liked you. i wonder if things would’ve changed, i really do. im just so confused because you used to tell me how much of a try hard she is and how much of a bad person she is and now you’re dating. i cant’t even bring myself to say it. you’re taken. i like you so much you have no idea. everyone tells me we have a connection and i know for a fact you feel it. im sorry im not skinny. if i was skinny i know we wouldve been together. i keep telling myself that i will lose weight but its just so hard. nobody gets it. my body wasnt just given to me as skinny i have to work to become it. just the timing i guess is just so bad. when i see you together honestly i dont know how im going to be able to handle myself. im crying in hysterics now. when i read that text message i started crying. my little sister asked if everything was okay i simply locked my phone and said that im fine. no, im not fine. it hurts so much. i doubt youre going to tell me. i want to just stop talking to you but for its nearly impossible. youre all i think about. i know this is going to have to change because i cant have you and you dont even want me. i want to tell you i like you but only in person i will. we were going to hangout today. but you couldnt because of her. it all makes sense now. if i was alone with you that night in the car things wouldve been different, i know it. we wouldve kissed. we wouldve been alone in the car at night. something wouldve happened. now im going to have to put on a smile at dinner. i just want to be with someone. i want to feel loved. i want to make someoen feel loved. i hope love finds me soon. but more importantly i hope i get skinny soon. that will solve so many problems
i know i said this last year but okay im going to make 2013 my year. again i know i said this about 2012 but i need change. I’ve had a good brunch( yogurt,luna bar, water) and im planning on going to the gym in a bit and i will do some of the youtube workouts. i am going to write on here everyday to keep me motivated. i need to be skinny so en will like me. i am going to be healthier.
the innitiialss go lke this: last letter of first name and last letter of lastname and reverse
I’m reblogging myself cause this has reached 3000 notes and frankly, that astounds me!
The negative comments always make me sad - “where did her boobs go” (I’m still a D cup, bitch) - “oh she had surgery, see the scar?” (appendectomy…) “ew she looks scrawny now, was definitely better before”
I am not scrawny or too thin, I’m fit and healthy and toned. Before I was overweight, ate a load of shit and was uncomfortable when I looked in the mirror. Now, my thighs and calves are rock hard, I can run 2 miles without getting out of breath and I’m working on developing my abs. Most importantly, I eat a nutritious diet and I love my body. I’m proud of it!
So fuck youuuuuuuuuuu motherfuckers!
you look amazing girl
This is easily my favorite before and after. She’s absolutely gorgeous.
also her bra is really cute.
She looks great, before and after.
it’s just annoying because i like you so fucking much and i know you don’t like me. i know i’m not the prettiest girl and i know i’m not the skinniest girl but ugh. it’s very rare that i like soemone and idk i just feel like we have a connection but i guess not because i guess you’d see it too. that night in the city you honestly hve no idea how much it meant to me. i felt such a deep connection. just the thought of you makes me smile :) when i get a notification from you i smile nonstop. you don’t know how much it would mean to me if you liked my profile picture. i’d be so happy. you liked hers and i know she’s gorgeous so idk. i’m just wishing you’d like me.